Daily i'm beginning to have a better understanding of what it means that our fight is not against flesh and blood, but against the powers of this dark world...
sometimes i wonder.. when we think of the second coming we think of like physical wars.. but perhaps it's more than that. surely there's a spiritual war, but i'm not talking about stuff like that. i'm referring to mental and emotional wars. The wars that makes our brain and heart rage against God.
I'm talking about the advert that pops up every recipie site i visit. the one that screams 'lose your tummy fat in 5 steps', or 'get ABs!' i'm talking about distraught school students buried in their sea of stress.. screaming 'DIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEeeeeeeeeeeeeeee..... lah...' sounds familiar?
i don't remember jc being as tough. so i wonder, am i hanging around people who are burnt out? or does this intensity increase with responsibility, with age, or with waking up that we better pull up our socks or we're not going to live a comfortable life. I think perhaps both.
To be honest (don't want to offend anyone), i hate it. yes i do. It's the word that starts with a 'h' and ends with an 'e'. The opposite of love maybe.. some very taboo word (to me. cos it's pretty strong yah.) that i haven't used in a long time. i hate it, i dread it i sceam 'BAH' in my head and i want to roll my eyes everytime it happens.
i'm refering to having to deal with negativity. i'm trying. i really am. (i hope i don't sound like a whiney complianing thing) but i'm sick of it. i'm sick of being surrounded by friends that say 'DIE LAH' when we change a lecturer, or when a test date is announced. i'm sick of that negativity. i'm sick of 'HOW HOW HOW'. because you know, and i know, and they know, that there's just DO, there's no HOW.
REALISITCALLY, let's figure out what's on the line. say, if i don't hand in my report on time, my grades gets abit lower, (whether significantly or not is hard to say), say we ignore all other factors, and i get a job with a starting pay lower then all my friends. i don't die what.
However, that's not to say that all my friends are whiney and complainey. i saw this msn nick recently : You can call me stupid, but hey, my God saves!
i'm not joking, it was like a blast of light shone through the darkness that shrouded me and threatened to eat me alive. Choirs of angels sang "Hallelujah". because Hosanna.
talk about revelation. God uses MSN to talk to people man. It was breakthrough for me. BREAKTHROUGH. honestly, i can't describe HOW MUCH OF A BREATH OF FRESH AIR THAT WAS TO ME.
it was my medicine for disappointment. disappointment in my friends, church, myself, everything.
God WILL be glorified. Let me tell you again, God WILL be GLORIFIED. i know it. His grace is sufficient, His power is made perfect in weaknesses.
what i mean to say is, my friends are whiney, but God can change them. i don't love my friends enough(love is patient about whiney friends), but God can change me. people complain, people are ungracious, people are disappointing, but God saves.
Die lah, but God saves!
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Hahha.. funny ending to a wonderfully crafted post.
Many a time, we realise it's easy to slip into a pessimistic mood in the face of reality... even I myself am guilty of that. But it's a good timely reminder.
However... I do like to believe that though pessimistic, there are people who still do their best in situations of negation... perhaps my outlook is different from XY's in the way that I find hope and optimism in the fact that there are people who still "DO" despite complaining... or perhaps it's the least that I can accept...
I'm tired, but after reading XY's post, I will hope and be optimistic.. at least until the next reminder comes. =) *Kidding XY...* =)
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